Idiosyncrasy

No, not really. Just I really can't stand all the Indonesian's accent when browsing through the stations. Maybe it's time to get Astro now. What's up with all the Indonesians dramas, series and what not? I'm not being racist. Nothing is wrong with them, I don't hate them, just in what aspect does Indon series give joy and better entertainment to kids that are on holidays now? Does flying angles with poorly done CGI scenes and magic gold chicken make kids go GAH-GAH? I never found them amusing. If the goal were giving kids good morals and unstoppable laughs, showing them 5-6 years old kids crying about how hell life can be and how magical life can stop all the shits with the existence of fairies and gold chicken, then you are the stupid one. Annoyed,

Aku dalam dilema yang menyesakkan nafas, membengkakkan otak dan menyakitkan hati. Kenapa setiap kali dalam sesebuah pemilihan tuh menjadikan hidup kau miserable? Maybe bukan kau, tapi aku yakin dan arif bahawa 98.9% orang dalam dunia nih akan mendapat tekanan perasaan dalam bab-bab memilih. Secara general, benda-benda harian yang kau lalui, choice kau utk menu lunch harini, atau apa yang patut kau masak utk suami kau yang bakal pulang dari kerja dengan muka tension dan keletihan menyelubungi diri lepas stuck dalam jam for hours. Yang berbeza hanya level tekanan perasaan kau dan the way you tackle the problem. Kau orang semua tahu, pilihan yang kau dah highlight tuh, akan determine the way your life goes until the next choices comes to you. Dan sehingga itu, apa saja kesan, buruk baik, tahi atau bunga, you made your own choice kan? So kau nak blame siapa kalau kau salah pilih? Apa-apa je keadaan, lelaki nak pilih isteri, perempuan nak pilih laki, mak nak pilih menantu, bos nak pilih e...

Not dissing anyone in particular, just having a full analysis of myself, myself and only. It has been ages since my days with people in surrounding having a British accent, remarkable vocabs, and definitely people to correct my imperfection in English. Not that my English was horrible that I have to walk around with dictionaries in my hand and have my grammar corrected by anyone who walks by, but they thought I was. I think I've changed those Caucasian's and Maori's thoughts. Not so much difference here, we talk in English just no so much, thus my English starts to fade eventually. Not totally, but probably half of them. I'm using simple vocabs, and sometimes I still misspelled, which somehow quite embarrassing for me cause I used to excel in my English with flying colours. I have grammar mistakes too, that sure puts me in deep confusion. It is possible, to be losing your ability in anything. I mean, today you might be a math geek and who knows in 3 years time you m...

Oh God. It's not that I disagree of whatever she claims she wants. Just, the way she put the words and say it out loud makes me shiver for a second or 5 seconds at least. "I don't want to see you here next year, you may go wherever you want, just not here." That's what she said. No, I didn't do anything wrong, or yet. She wants me to study abroad next year. Putting that much hope in me did make me proud, but again, am I able to achieve the goals? I have nothing wrong with the idea, me myself would really want to go somewhere snowy and chilly for the studies in the future. I'm thinking of Ireland, the accent just let me fall in love deep into the idea of going there for dentistry. Or even United Kingdom. I love English and British! Kingston University might be best for Marine Biology courses. Praying to God of course or the best results and all the help that could get me with my dreams and goals. This is only the basic phase of my life, where all the pla...

Sebab title post kali nih mengenai anak Melayu, jadi aku akan menaip dalam bahasa Melayu. Kira-kira pada pukul 1630, Sabtu, 12 September 2009 dimana aku dalam perjalanan nak pulang ke rumah. Sebagai anak watan yang masih belum berkemampuan nak membeli sebuah kereta untuk mengulang alik kemana sahaja, jadi pilihan terbaik adalah LRT. Dari Masjid Jamek ke Wangsa Maju, dengan tiket plastik yang dah usang kerana di guna mungkin berpuluh-puluh kali oleh berbagai jenis manusia yang berharga RM2.10, aku yang ibarat sudah tercabut urat betis akibat perjalanan yang amat jauh untuk menemani kakak tiri aku untuk mencari sehelai tudung yang berharga RM10, mengucap kata syukur sebab masih terdapat tempat duduk utk aku melabuhkan punggung. Akibat penat yang teramat, aku tak mengeluarkan sepatah kata dengan kakak tiri ku itu, walaupun untuk menegur bagaimana dia tersengguk-sengguk dalam tren sebab mengantuk. Namun aku tetap memasang telinga dan mata ku tetap melilau sekitar tren tersebut. Berada 2 ...

All the problems have been settled. True, I need to lower down my ego and just make the call. Although I'm hoping that I won't be the only one that dropped down my ego in the future and I'm not regretting the stuff I jot down cause, its kinda the reason we are talking again. So now, no more problems at the moment, except for my major examination. SPM. 48 days to go peeps, roll up your sleeves and prepare to read!  Not actually reading myself :P ,

I am in a situation where I feel so annoyed with what happened around me. Though I admit, this is not the best move I've taken to show off my maturity. Knowing I've been lied right in front of my face for the whole 2 months was overwhelming, yet as I said before, being an ass for 3 days in a row by not calling, or even bother to hi wasn't the best thing to do. The news did hit me pretty bad, since I'm so closed to him as I thought we were best friends. He gave an excuse but it wasn't enough. I have my own reasons to feel hurt deeply, but sooner or later I will come to my senses and give him a call to say sorry for being too emotional about the whole thing. Soon, hopefully. I don't wanna think back that a highly foolish and immature action that call our friendship to an end. I am annoyed, not with him, but the other 'friend' of mine. I wouldn't call her as a friend actually, since she never thinks me as hers. I used to care so much of her, I forgo...

Sorry, bukan pandai sangat dialek kedah nih. Sikit-sikit boleh lah. Nak cerita sikit benda yang aku fed up sangat since the day of exam started. Umm..tak jugak..2 weeks after exam started. Elok2 dalam kelas, SPM candidates science stream kena pindah masuk dewan pulak lepas budak PMR abes exam. Oklah, seronok jugak, sebab dpt duduk sebelah "ehem2" and asyik berpegangan tangan (padahal passing stapler je =_=") Dia nak bukak mulut nak pinjam stapler dengan aku pon dah cukup baik. Opss, back to the main point. Nak dijadikan cerita, aku duk depan sekali, and tak tau lah pasal apa, rasa tak seronok sangat. Mainly sebab hamba ALLAH kelas 5E sangat lah menyakitkan hati, memekakkan telinga dan menyemakkan kepala. Kalau tak bersiul, bercakap, kalau tak bergendang, main pen. Siap meniru! Hey, bukan main tuduh kot sedap mulut, memang terbukti sah. Tapi kalau aku bagitau pon macam tak guna, cause no one actually care. Tuh bosan exam dlm dewan! ARGGGHHH! Memang ikutkan hati aku nak t...

Aku rasa lah, well..because it's not with me right now, or my room, or even in my handbag. Tried to call cause i remember I didn't put it on silent as I always do. Kenapa? bukan sebab takut mama dengar asyik ada org contact, sebab memang takda sape nak contact. Sejak-sejak orang tuh jauh di perantauan, aku dengan hp ibarat kanak-kanak dengan..umm..let's say dengan books. Sometimes they get excited with the colours and drawings in there, but when it comes to reading, not much of them will hang around books all the time. Agak risau lah, sebab nanti mama bising and aku malas nak beli simcard banyak kali. Tapi tak delah sampai tahap tak keruan. Hari ini dah dua kali aku abandoned handphone Sony Ericsson K800 tuh. Actually I've been doing that for ages sebab I'm not fond of that particular cell. Tapi hari ini sangat obvious that I don't care about the phone since I didn't realise I left my phone on a table in a restaurant. Never been that careless when it come...

I wouldn't mind a Proton Savvy, or Perodua Myvi (although I don't actually like the Transformers back of the Myvi) Seeing my cousins and my peers driving around the area, jealousy did come across my mind. But it wasn't so bad. Being 17 and no driving license, I still can bear the desire driving a car. But last 2 days, the feeling of wanting to have my own vehicle and driving license in my hand was maximised. That beautiful day, with some wind flowing, lasted for only few minutes. I was standing beside the road, with my red bag, and a book in my hand. I was wearing a baju kurung, the wind didn't do any much help. I was waiting for a cab to show up. 5 mins, 10 mins, none of them came. The sun didn't shine for long, either. It was raining then. I was anxious, and literally cursing over the cabs. No cabs, no one to take a ride, my parents are busy with their work, I don't want sweat all over my body and walking under the pouring rain would be the worst thing to do...

Tolong aku. I'm dying. Aku nak sangat tengok Public Enemies. This feeling is indescribable. Aku nak tengok sangat-sangat sampai rasa nak mati. Serious. Aku nak tengok sangat. Please. Tolong siapa-siapa datang teman aku pergi tengok Public Enemies. I had 1/8 of this feeling towards Fighting.just because of Channing Tatum. I got over it somehow. Now..I want to watch Johnny Depp so bad that I cry over a damn poster. PLEASE. LET ME WATCH PUBLIC ENEMIES!

You heard about Japanese eating Whales, and u suddenly become angry and think that's disgusting. While, Malaysians, guess what? They have turtles eggs in their plates. Yes, Malaysians, well maybe some of you don't but there are many people out there who does. Now turtles in Rantau Abang is leading towards extinction. And I'm pretty sure, not many of you know that they are few turtles in Malacca. Out of so many food out there, please, I beg you. STOP HAVING TURTLES EGGS IN YOUR PLATES! Those RM10 for 4 eggs are eggs for the turtles to keep their species running in the Earth ecosystem. How do you feel, if one of your cat's kitten being eaten? Think smart and have some respect towards the nature. Just sign a pledge, it's definitely free and it won't take more than 5 minutes of your precious time on Facebook or Myspace. Save our turtles

All right, this is a list where things that we can easily do in our daily days that we don't realised could help in saving our Earth. Just don't take this for granted, cause I'm pretty sure, most of us have realised the importance of taking care of the mother nature, that we should have done since ages ago. Instead of swearing to the government because of their unorganised development or all the peoples that still buy things and use plastics excessively or even the people who just simply could not be bothered looking for a trash can, I'll just try to help you people to know the easiest things to do and save our environment :) 1. If you're buying a loaf of bread, or even just a bottle of water, do you really need the plastic to hold it? I really don't think so. Do this, if you still able to hold the things you bought, then hold them without a plastic. So, before the cashier pull out the plastic, just simply say, "No, I don't need that plastic, thank...

Aku dah lama tunggu saat nih, actually, malam tadi. Yes, thanks to Barca akhirnya the United's fans will keep it low for at least 5 months. Aku bukan peminat Barcelona, tapi aku memang nak Barcelona menang, just to keep the United's people shut up for a while. Why? I didn't know MU because of Ronaldo but I know them because of their cockiness. Yeah, maybe depa bagus or whatsoever, but hey, nothing gives anyone the right to brag. They just make people hate them :) Plus, looking at Cristiano Ronaldo, especially his hair, I'll have to puke. Sorry girls, but I don't like him. Zidane is definitely hotter, especially when watching him head butted Materazzi live on tv in FIFA WORLD CUP 2006. For 2-0, is definitely VIVA BARCA. To all United's fans, hope this will help you guys to be a little humble when it comes to any match. For Chelsea Fans, hope you will enjoy this, Chelsea VS United (Love Story)

Itu aku, tapi dulu. Dulu, ketika umur baru mencecah 12 tahun. Aku ingat, emak suruh kemas beg pagi Jumaat, aku kemas beg sekolah. Emak cakap, kemas beg besar, nak balik kampung. Aku menangis, sebab tak nak ponteng sekolah. Sumpah. Ini kisah benar. Memang agak pelik sikit bila menangis sebab nak pergi sekolah. Tapi itulah aku, being the only one left in the family, aku bosan di rumah. Aku suka pergi sekolah. But time goes by, zaman tu dah berubah. Sekarang bukanlah suka ponteng sekolah, tapi tak pernah jadi a big deal lagi kalau sehari tak pergi sekolah. Itu kisah aku, ini kisah budak ini. Stefaner Zaner, yang digelar Iron Kid , because of her 13 years of full attendance. 13 years. Waa, itu maybe aku kalau aku masih bersekolah di Logan Park High School. But hey, 13 years she never missed school, not even a day off because of sickness, or any trip with a family. She is one of the reason that proves, by going to school, you'll get straight A's or even 4.00 in CGPA. She's norma...

Aku tau tajuk entri nih agak kerek..tapi actually..the thing is tak ramai pun yang bukak blog aku. Atleast not because of my writing..but satu tajuk entri yang lalu, Apa cerita gay & lesbian . Jangan salah faham. Aku bukan penulis cerita erotik. Hanya sekadar satu cerita yang ditimbulkan selepas perbincangan terbuka bersama teman-teman. Terima kasih kepada FEEDJIT, aku dapat kenal pasti apa sebenarnya yang mereka mahukan. Sudah banyak kali terbukti, view yang aku dapat dari negeri-negeri lain, adalah kerana mereka browsed 'cerita gay'. Agak lawak sebenarnya..bila memikirkan, diorang view blog aku and didn't get what they wanted. Pity them kan? Haha, maybe I should do this more :) I had a lot of giggles today. I do find something rather annoying in class on this particular day too. But hey, let's not talk about my life. They're boring :). Watch this video . Its better :D

I have this particular desire. I really want it to be a reality no matter how stupid or silly it sounded. It's not living in a mansion, or being a princess or even be married to Patrick Dempsey. This is a common dream. But hell, God knows I'll never have it. I do know that even the dream is not coming true, I will never stop wanting it too.

Ada satu couple nih, baru kenal dalam masa sebulan. Faizal Tahir (kembar penyanyi tuh) bawak awek dia si Stacy nih pergi ke kedai mamak Syed. Dekat Melawati tuh. Stacy masam muka, "kenapa you bawak i datang kat tempat nih?" Faizal Tahir tersengih-sengih memandang tv Flat Screen kat kedai mamak tuh. Agak pelik jugak kedai mamak mampu beli Flat Screen. Agaknya dia tak bagi makan pada TV tuh kot. Faizal jerit, "Mamak! bukak ESPN!" Waah..kedai mamak ada ASTRO. Stacy berpeluk tubuh. Tak ada bantal nak peluk kot. Faizal buat muka miang. "Sayang, I nak tunjuk you benda yang I suka sangat dalam dunia nih selain you." Mula berkumandang lagu intro Premier League ketika itu. Stacy nampak. Stacy nampak kaca flat screen itu penuh dengan warna merah. "The Red DEVILS?" Stacy nampk sasau "TIDAAKKK!" Pasukan Manchester United berarak masuk ke padang. Faizal terkejut melihat kekasihnya. Stacy terlompat-lompat seperti beruk. Matanya berapi macam Dra...

Rata-rata aku tengok orang bawak hockey stick, maklumlah. Awal tahun, semua sibuk menghitamkan diri berejam2 dibawah terik mentari. Buat apa? Tika inilah kau tahu, siapa yang 'the jocks in school' and siapa yang 'nerdy'. Jiwa aku memberontak. Aku jeling kayu hoki tuh. Slazenger memanggil-manggil. Grays menjerit-jerit. Apa aku boleh buat? Aku biarkan saja diri aku yg berbaju kurung biru..menghampiri Slazenger. Biarlah semua kaum Adam tuh memandang, biarlah cikgu berkerut dahi. Di saat aku memegang kulitnya, indahnya perasaan degupan jantung aku. The curves yang ada pada Slazenger tuh..masyaALLAH. indahnya.. Aku melangkah menghampiri bola putih itu. Aku ciumkan Slazenger dan bola itu, belum sempat aku dribble the ball.. "woiii gemok! kau nak buat apa huh? Pandai ke main hoki? Takat gemuk camtuh takyah tunjuk kebodohan kau lah weihh!" Dari jauh kedengaran suara yg dtg dari mulut kaum Adam berbaju hijau striking itu. WTF? Aku jeling, aku hit bola tuh masuk...

Aku benci dengan kau cicak. Kau sgt menjengkelkan. Kau ronda dapur aku seperti kau polis patrol. Kau melangkah dgn bangganya atas lantai rumah aku macam kau bayar sewa. Kau tak malu buat bunyi utk bagitahu kau ada di atas siling rumah aku. Cicak, kau menjadi sebab aku mencarut dalam rumah, kau menjadi sebab aku menjerit mcm budak perempuan. Kau juga menjadi sebab aku takut nak bukak almari dapur. Kau kurang ajar cicak. Aku trauma dengan kau cicak. Kau berada di bawah tapak kaki aku masa aku nak basuh pinggan, kau bodoh. Aku kesian, ingat kau getah. Apa lagi. Aku lenyek abes2. Ingatkan getah. Tapi aku rasa darah. Aku tgk bawah. Kau dah lari, darah kau kau tak malu tinggalkan atas lantai dapur aku. Ekor kau tanpa segan silu menjentik-jentik tergedik-gedik bergerak-gerak. Aku benci kau cicak. Cicak, kau jahat. Kau buat aku benci pada Iguana. Dia tak salah. Tapi aku benci dia. Kau jahat cicak, kau berak atas kabinet dapur aku. Kau kejam cicak. Cicak, aku minta maaf sebab ganggu kau...

I'm not looking for someone to talk to I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K. I've got more than a girl could wish for I live my dreams but it's not all they say Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real I need someone who really sees me... (Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore Still believing you'll walk through my door All I need is to know it's for sure Then I'll give... all the love in the world I've often wondered if love's an illusion Just to get you through the loneliest days I can't criticize it I have no hestitaion My imagination just stole me away (Still...) Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real I need someone who really sees me... (Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore Still believing you'll walk through my door All I need is to know it's for sure Then I'll give... all the love in the world Love...

Aku sekarang sedang menarik nafas sepanjang mungkin, panjang yang melampau sehinggakan aku rasa aku boleh koma. Di sini aku nak sampaikan satu pesanan, kau nak prank orang, tolong arh jangan cakap pasal mati..lagi-lagi orang yg dimatikan tuh org yg kau sayang.. lagi satu! kau baca message lain kali, baca penuh-penuh! jangan sekerat-sekerat..kau tekan sampai bawahh MAXIMUM! ada paham?! Ya, aku admit, aku mangsa keganasan penipuan di bawah akta April 1. HASMIDA, esok kat sekolah siap kau!

Hey you, the breeze came and told me about you, the sun then showed up and said that too. They whispered in my ear, saying you are the one. But then the black clouds came. Rushing towards me, screaming at my face.. that you would not be mine... Hey you, You're so far away, I don't know what to do. You're so ahead away while I'm still counting steps behind you. We're so different. Why do I still desire you? Hey you, I'm sorry that I stole off the pictures of you. I'm sorry that I stare them all night long. I'm sorry that I dreamt of you for so long. I'm sorry that I crave so much, for you. I mesmerize your name, though you did not know mine I remember your birthday, though you did not care for mine I'll be here, looking at you from afar, Cause there's no guts in me to talk to you and cross the bar.. I'll just be your hidden lover, cause you worth a thousand better

Aku bukanlah seorang anak Malaysia yang boleh dikatakan seorang yang mempunyai semangat patriotik. Tapi, berada di Dataran Merdeka sehingga 3-4 pagi bukanlah juga tanda kau menyintai Malaysia sepenuh jiwa. Tolong jangan silap tafsir ya? Aku pernah mencaci, pernah juga membenci, benci dengan sikap kerajaan kita yang lemah, menyampah dengan sampah-sampah yang bersepah. Aku meluat dengan sikap manusia Malaysia yang membuatkan negara kita tersenarai sebagai negara ke-empat yang kurang prihatin dgn kepentingan orang lain. Betul, aku belum penat menyatakan kebodohan Malaysia yang masih dipengaruhi anasir-anasir luar. Mungkin tidak cukup dua muka surat kalau aku nyatakan semua. Tapi, bila aku dengar lagu ini terngiang-ngiang di pendengaran, entah mengapa sayu hati. Mula terbit rasa cintakan Malaysia. Pernah dengar lagu ini?

Sana sini bawak SLR. Haiihh, aku ada jugak teringin, tapi satu habitat (tabiat + habit) tabii dalam norma kehidupan aku..susah aku nak suka apa yang semua orang suka nih. Aku pun tak faham isu berkenaan apa masalah nih timbul. Tapi timbul juga perasaan ingin tuh. Lagi best kalau boleh tangkap gambar seindah ini.

Sebab aku dah jumpa my long lost friend gara-gara chilanat mana yang curi N73 aku! Tengah nangis sekarang nih sbb dah lama tak tengok diorang..

Mama dah balik! Yeay, tapi sedih sebab lepas nih dah tak mungkin aku jejak bumi New Zealand tuh lagi :( Jikalau mungkin sekalipun, Otago Uni, wait for me! Mama mamai, terus melepaskan geram terhadap bantal di Hillside nih, lagipun masa di NZ ketika ini kami baru nak bermula solat Subuh, kira-kira jam 5 pagi. Aku pula, melihat bagasi-bagasi mama yang sarat tuh, tak sabar nak bukak. Mama kunci pintu, aku terjah beg biru. Kalau ada screen effect maybe time aku buka beg itu, ada sinaran cahaya yang keluar. Apa yang aku jumpa? Ini dia.. Inilah faedahnya bila kilang Cadbury berada 40 min dari kawasan rumah kami. Hehe, Whittaker's juga one of my favourite tapi mama tak beli the one that I love :( Most of the chocolates here are not in Malaysia, and this is only a third of it. Nguahahaha :) I miss NZ already. Then, aku dig in much deeper, deep sgt sampai terjumpa pulak lingeries. Aku kona sikit, aku jumpa si gemok nih Comel sangat kan? But its not for me. DAMN. Mama at her 50'...

I'm phenomenally thrilled, excited and in love! Seriously, the feeling is indescribable. I am so in love, I'm drooling all over him. I can't even move my eyes for a nano second from the beautifully drawn face. All the good things he brings in my life, I couldn't say enough thanks. For years that I waited for his existence in my life, after very long searches, countless locations, but then I came home full of frustrations. I was about to give up, and just no longer craving for his love in my lonely life. I never felt so gloomy in my 17 years of breathing. Then, in this bookstore, I saw them. Yes, so many of them. My eyes were very sore to look for the one that I have been desiring. I look through the eyes but it was an unfortunate that they were not any of them that I would call "the one". I looked down and walked away, Who knew, the days passed so slowly, and I walked to the same bookstore. I wasn't looking, not even seeking, for the one anymore. Ca...