Idiosyncrasy

            It's the story of the yellow shoes. Where the journey started..wait, this becoming a bit lame. Though I'm really exited about typing this one down, so please let me grin and continue with this journey of my yellow shoes.             It was a coincidence, wasn't looking for anything in particular or colour for that matter. In need of a new, proper shoes for me to walk around the campus since the previous shoes took less than a year to fail me despite of the price, mama dragged me to Sogo to find me the shoe that fit for my Caucasian-sized feet. The thing I knew for sure, black was not on my list. I was looking for something simple yet not boring. I mean, black is boring. Though I kinda regret that I didn't buy black since IIUM requires the student to wear black, I was in UiTM when I bought this pair of shoes. I saw the fuchsia Polo at first. Tried it on, walked about the...

Instruction : Once you are tagged, answer all the questions honestly. No lying or cheating. Starting time : 3:32am Name : An-Zurie Ayesya bt Abu Johan Brother(s) : 2 Eye colour : Dark Brown Shoe size : 9 Hair : Dark Brown Piercings : Yes Height : 169cm What are you wearing right now : turquoise baby top ans shorts Where do you live : Hulu Kelang, Kuala Lumpur Favourite number : 7 Favourite drink: Watermelon Juice Favourite month : January Favourite breakfast : Toast  -Have you ever- 1. Broken a bone : NO 2. Been in a police car : Nope 3. Fallen for a friend : Yup 4. Fallen for a guy/girl in a short period of time : Yeah 5. Swam in the ocean : Yezza 6. Fallen asleep in school : 24/7 7. Broken someone's heart : Did I? 8. Cried when someone died : Yeap 9. Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Ahaa 10. Saved e-mails : Yes 11. Been cheated on : Yupp -What- 1. Your room look like : Something with a lot of stuff 2. What is right beside y...

An-Zurie Ayesya = Lonely             That equation doesn't sound quite right. Because for all the times I've ups and downs in life, I never felt so lonely until today. Today I realised that I don't have that really much friends to accompany me when my mates are already occupied with their own activities. With the lack of souls around the house since mama left for Hajj, my insanity seems to lose itself when I kept staring at the ceiling telling myself what should I do for today. I've spent hours interacting with the object others my age could not live without like laptops and music, still, I haven't find any satisfaction after hours browsing through ArmorGames , Zedge even. No need to mention Facebook and Twitter.             The funny thing is, it is such a coincidence that as I'm typing every word down, this song came out from my iTunes play list.             It...

I love you, so much, that 4 months are enough I love you, so much, that all the arguments doesn't matter I'll miss you, so much, I would cut myself into half, I'll miss you, so much, I hope without me, all would be better :) All the laughter and tears we had together, Will all be remembered here and after, Tease around, screams and shouts, Will always be heard in my mind loud and clear Thank you for the time we had Thank you for the moments we shared No one could replace you No one would disgrace you For the things we haven't done InsyaALLAH there will be some other time For those that we've had our fun, I'll keep them in my mind I'll miss everyone of you.     Lots of love,

            At the age of age of 18, I'm feeling lifeless and bored. Chasing what they call 'fun' and 'success' in life. I'm the one who walks around wondering what to do next, not really the next 5 minutes, but the next 5 years. I'm the one who wonders around walking by myself, trying to figure out my own instincts. I want to chase my dreams, but it seems to run far away from me. I could not even see the sight of my-so-called ambition anymore. It all seem to fade away. I don't even know if it's even possible to achieve my dreams.             Despite all these whining, I'm gonna have to stay on the positive side of the track of life. I would not want to add grief to my depression. I could actually see a stick figure coming towards me with a yellow Sharpie, drawing a grin on my face with my teeth showing as the way I like it. I'm surely gonna walk around doing my daily duties with more confidence and most likely more...

                 But it hurts, deeply, almost throughly, across, vertically not to mention horizontally through my heart. I'm too filled with emotions, having no much more than a particle thick of rationality. Sure, a smile or should I say a grin surfaced after you said you did recognised me. We were kiddos, but our reminiscence still remains as if it was only yesterday. Would you even know how much our friendship meant to me?                  Although it's not all rainbows when you're back in my scope of vision. It has been too long since we last talked to each other, or ride bicycles with one another. It has been too long when we fought about who's wrong and who's right. Too long. I still have some sense of rationality, when I know you wouldn't remember these moments. Cause it wasn't as special to you as it was to me.               ...

            When 4 different people has to live under the same roof, it is chaos. Lucky the other 3 the can mix up pretty well since they think and act the same way in pretty much everything. Too bad for the other person who has to live up with the other 3. Why do I have to be the one person who stands alone? Cause I chose to. There will be no details needed for this since I have no intention to spread out any negativity throughout the world. Thus, this is my prayer.            Dear ALLAH Al Mighty, replace them 3 and let me stay with peace for another 5 semesters in this lovely room that I'm so thankful for.  :)