Idiosyncrasy

                There were days when I walked under the stars, I felt so blessed there are nights to make the stars shine so bright. There were days when there were only one or two little ones, but enough to make me smile. I always say "Cantiknya bintang malam ni." Most of the time I'd be alone but that one night, I had a friend with me. I'll always remember the reply she made, "Alaa, ada satu je pun." I may be bias towards my stars, but then I realised, the star did shine bright enough for me, but maybe she had much brighter ones plenty of time that this one little yellow light didn't bring any meaning to her.                  The time when I was young and dumb I always thought everyone is the same inside. May not be on the outside since I was always the odd one out for being one of the tallest and largest in primary school and no longer the tallest but always one of the largest in high school. I nev...

              Second semester in IIUM just ended few days ago and I was done emptying the room in Ruqayyah about few hours ago. As I put the gear on reverse and slowly looking back at the quite-old-but-still-quite-new building, I find it hard to leave. It might seem lame, because others might feel like leaving is the best part because you're going back to the place you're familiar with; home. While for me, it suddenly came to me that as I leave the area, I'm walking to a different path in less than 20 days. I'd be coming back as a different person, having something else to look up in my life, or I might not even come back at all.               It's overwhelming really, as you grow older, you're supposed to go wiser, but of course, you need lessons and changes to become wiser. For the past few months, many had happened and every single tiny bit of those actually created who I am today. Never mind how much I whi...

     Any countries are all about development now. Especially for those who are categorized under developing countries (Google them if you're unsure), including Malaysia. With the high expectation given from the former prime minister, Tun Dr. Mahathir, wanting Malaysia to be fully developed before the year 2020, every possible changes are made here and there. And this is a scribble of how I think it's not all great with changes.      Since my mum's sickness of thyroid cancer, I've been the errand runner in the house after my step dad. I basically helps her with cooking, shopping and driving. So the nearest market would be Giant, the store that has been there since I have not existed. Usually I would be by myself since it's tiring for mum to go up and down the stairs (living in an old apartment would be tiring when you live on the highest floor) and few days ago it was the same. When I was stepping out the car, I can see the elderly who has been working her...

     Karma. A word that I heard often but rarely use. The word that certain people like to believe that it'll bring positive changes to themselves. I won't say that exactly. Here, lets see what does it actually mean. Karma: the sum of a person's actions in this and previous states of existence, viewed as deciding the fate in future existences  (Oxford Dictionary).      An event that occur few days ago that made me thinking, why do people believe in karma? Why would they hope that karma would give revenge to those who hurt them in the past? 89% of the time that I heard of this word, it would come with such hatred from these individuals. Karma originated from the culture of Hinduism or Buddhism. I would not say it's totally wrong to put karma as a belief because I'm not actually qualified to talk about the hukum in Islam. Even so, this is what I think of karma.      As I mentioned earlier, some people tend to rely on karma as...

     Excuse me, pardon me. Coming through. Okay just imagine that I'm walking through with an enormous broom on my hand (because vacuum is too mainstream) trying to sweep off all the 5-inch dust laying around my blogosphere. This should be the longest time I haven't written anything to squeeze out of my head and seriously, it's getting cramped up with opinions that I'm sure every each and one of you would hate. I'm gonna start tonight's post on something that I love: Language.      Language had always fascinated me. The idea of having few words joined together and making a sentence just blew me away off my feet. I'm even more astonished with the theory that a sentence could bring the same meaning even when you build them with different words entirely. That is why Thesaurus has been my all-time favourite book. Nevertheless, the trouble with the Grammar especially English is definitely overwhelming. I mean, where are the rules?! I graduated through high sch...

                 May be a bad start for me to clean the dust gathered around my blog with this kind of title, but I'm a free writer. People can judge (I know they will) all they want but here's my bits of thought of recent situation: "High-achiever Malay student facing a culture shock".            Since SPM is the biggest exam that became such an important issue that what ever comes out in that exam slip will decide how the younger generations' future will become, so whoever that went through the exam with flying colours became a legendary idol towards others. When moms and dads are busy comparing their kids to Amalina who managed to score 17A1 in her SPM, certain students feel so pressured that a 12 years old girl made a decision to hang herself out of the fear that she'd dissapoint her parents for not getting 7A's. Is this really the kind of thinking that we want to put in our future holders? Change your way...