patah hati

no more hopes..
no more imagination..
and obviously no more everything..

i'll stop myself from looking throughout the window and admiring the looks and the way of walking.
i'll stop smiling and thinking when he walk past through me and keep saying his name.
i'll stop telling my friends how he looks on that particular day or what he eats and how he walks.

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i MUST NOT look at him where ever he goes.
i MUST NOT adore him when he does something nice.
and i MUST REALLY NOT get jealous when he talks to that girl.

i have to stop telling myself that i should go and say hi to him.
i should definitely stop smiling at him.
i obviously need to stop looking for him around the school.

SHIT..why now!!!! After 2 days that i feel so completely thrilled and excited.
Now..it is all have been taken away.

MAYBE i should delete his number.
MAYBE i should start to hate him.
MAYBE i should pay attention to somewhat/someone/something else.

and i really have to let his name out of my mind.

NOW!

biarlah dia pergi.

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