Idiosyncrasy

kenapa in this world ader perkataan "sacrifice"? why tdo they think dat love is all about sacrifices? yes i do agree with the statement; 'when we love someone, we would sacrifice anything for them' it shows that we really do love that someone. such as; A mother sacrifices their money and time to be spent on their kids. Because she LOVES them but why do we intent to say. " oh no, this is something we call responsibilities. they HAVE to spend their time for us because they are SUPPOSED to." well. have you think it through? i was there ONCE. saying that my mother don't love me. she's just buying me stuff cause she's supposed to.. well here's another example; why do teachers sacrifice their time resting at home and stay late at school just to make the pupils better at learning? do you seriously think its paid? well NO! they dont get paid by staying late to teach us that's what we call sacrifices. but how do it works in a relationship?

i'm so annoyed with the july test. Results were like.. OMG.. atleast improving in add maths without having to copy anyone. that's the thing. Some people they get great marks and get compliments from the teachers but they didn't have to work hard for that certain paper. then why they get GOOD MARKS? easy; bcause they copy other peoples' papers.. yes.. very annoying right? yeah i did that before and trying myself to stop doing that coz it would not be fair for other people and you are lying to yourself.. yang paling menyedihkan that i failed EST..it's like EST???~~!!! how can i failed it? someone thats even worst in english than me pon dpt pass.. nak tahu how? coz she brought in the infos of genetic engineering on that exam day.. how dat i know? coz i saw her..copying and writing down words from an article.. im so pissed off..didnt want to tell any teachers..well u know i did dat once..so..let them be..coz at the end..diorg yg akan rugi. Alhamdulillah. physics lulus. ...

no more hopes.. no more imagination.. and obviously no more everything.. i'll stop myself from looking throughout the window and admiring the looks and the way of walking. i'll stop smiling and thinking when he walk past through me and keep saying his name. i'll stop telling my friends how he looks on that particular day or what he eats and how he walks. i MUST NOT look at him where ever he goes. i MUST NOT adore him when he does something nice. and i MUST REALLY NOT get jealous when he talks to that girl. i have to stop telling myself that i should go and say hi to him. i should definitely stop smiling at him. i obviously need to stop looking for him around the school. SHIT..why now!!!! After 2 days that i feel so completely thrilled and excited. Now..it is all have been taken away. MAYBE i should delete his number. MAYBE i should start to hate him. MAYBE i should pay attention to somewhat/someone/something else. and i really have to let his name ou...

arinih gaduh lagik.. smlm da gaaduh.. wat the fish btollarh.. ntah apehal ngn kiteorg aku pon xtau..n 1 time tuh aku rse nk campak jauh2 jerk.. masyaALLAH tahap tension yg maksima skg nih..da larh mmg da tension than other probs added to it. OMFG. aku rse nk makan org skg..yg psl perarakan tuk merdeka nih xtaularh nk buat cane.. mama's going to pahang. so there will be no one here..and i chose to stay wit abg coz abg asked 4 my help to loof after aqilah.. at d same time..SIJIL KEBANGSAAN BABE!!!! canne aku nk lepaskan..takat nk masuk tv tuh bukn heran ape.. ahiihh.. si tinggi berkaca mata nih agik sorg..kredit da bes..tahap kebosanan yg mmg xleyh nk describe cane.. n i think he changed number to avoid me..well if thats d thing.. its GOOD at one side..but SADLY at d other..dalarh smlm mimpi..ASTARGHFIRULLAH..