Idiosyncrasy

I have this particular desire. I really want it to be a reality no matter how stupid or silly it sounded. It's not living in a mansion, or being a princess or even be married to Patrick Dempsey. This is a common dream. But hell, God knows I'll never have it. I do know that even the dream is not coming true, I will never stop wanting it too.

Hey you, the breeze came and told me about you, the sun then showed up and said that too. They whispered in my ear, saying you are the one. But then the black clouds came. Rushing towards me, screaming at my face.. that you would not be mine... Hey you, You're so far away, I don't know what to do. You're so ahead away while I'm still counting steps behind you. We're so different. Why do I still desire you? Hey you, I'm sorry that I stole off the pictures of you. I'm sorry that I stare them all night long. I'm sorry that I dreamt of you for so long. I'm sorry that I crave so much, for you. I mesmerize your name, though you did not know mine I remember your birthday, though you did not care for mine I'll be here, looking at you from afar, Cause there's no guts in me to talk to you and cross the bar.. I'll just be your hidden lover, cause you worth a thousand better

I'm phenomenally thrilled, excited and in love! Seriously, the feeling is indescribable. I am so in love, I'm drooling all over him. I can't even move my eyes for a nano second from the beautifully drawn face. All the good things he brings in my life, I couldn't say enough thanks. For years that I waited for his existence in my life, after very long searches, countless locations, but then I came home full of frustrations. I was about to give up, and just no longer craving for his love in my lonely life. I never felt so gloomy in my 17 years of breathing. Then, in this bookstore, I saw them. Yes, so many of them. My eyes were very sore to look for the one that I have been desiring. I look through the eyes but it was an unfortunate that they were not any of them that I would call "the one". I looked down and walked away, Who knew, the days passed so slowly, and I walked to the same bookstore. I wasn't looking, not even seeking, for the one anymore. Ca...

This is when I knew, Aku telah menyerah kalah

Pernah dengar tak lagu "Ada Apa dengan cinta?". Oh Jangan ingat aku sedang membicarakan cinta sebab hari Valentine's Day, no offence but aku tak celebrate Valentine's. Memanglah melompat, dengan hati berbunga riang, senyuman hingga ke gigi lepas dapat bunga ros, chocolates or anything red tapi kenapa on the exact date? Ok, aku bukan nak cerita kenapa aku rasa Valentine's Day itu bodoh tapi aku nak bakar keyboard ini dengan kelajuan menaip pada tahap maksima utk aku cakap pasal satu fasa hidup yg aku sendiri sdg lalui sekarang. Ada yg pasti boleh agak kan? Jgn risau, ini bukan post yg emotional atau jiwang karat. Sekali lagi, aku ego. Aku boleh lepaskan, bukanlah senang tapi tidaklah mustahil. Tapi aku sengal, kononnya aku pencinta yg agung, tak pernah lupa kekasihnya. Kononnya aku ini yang terbaik, setia pada yg sama bertahun2. Kononnya aku ini kuat, menunggu hingga ke akhir masa utk dia kembali ke sisi. Sebab tuh aku lebih rela seksa diri aku. Biar aku tau yang a...

I don't write beautiful stories, neither imaginations nor meaningful quotes that happens to motivate 1 in every 10 person in the world. Out of nowhere, I suddenly realise why I appreciate candid pictures more than a real portrait. Here's FOR ME , why they show that you're so happy without to get ready for the moment to be captured and pretend it's such a lovely time you're having. Insanity approached ayesya

no more hopes.. no more imagination.. and obviously no more everything.. i'll stop myself from looking throughout the window and admiring the looks and the way of walking. i'll stop smiling and thinking when he walk past through me and keep saying his name. i'll stop telling my friends how he looks on that particular day or what he eats and how he walks. i MUST NOT look at him where ever he goes. i MUST NOT adore him when he does something nice. and i MUST REALLY NOT get jealous when he talks to that girl. i have to stop telling myself that i should go and say hi to him. i should definitely stop smiling at him. i obviously need to stop looking for him around the school. SHIT..why now!!!! After 2 days that i feel so completely thrilled and excited. Now..it is all have been taken away. MAYBE i should delete his number. MAYBE i should start to hate him. MAYBE i should pay attention to somewhat/someone/something else. and i really have to let his name ou...