Idiosyncrasy

I am in a situation where I feel so annoyed with what happened around me. Though I admit, this is not the best move I've taken to show off my maturity. Knowing I've been lied right in front of my face for the whole 2 months was overwhelming, yet as I said before, being an ass for 3 days in a row by not calling, or even bother to hi wasn't the best thing to do. The news did hit me pretty bad, since I'm so closed to him as I thought we were best friends. He gave an excuse but it wasn't enough. I have my own reasons to feel hurt deeply, but sooner or later I will come to my senses and give him a call to say sorry for being too emotional about the whole thing. Soon, hopefully. I don't wanna think back that a highly foolish and immature action that call our friendship to an end. I am annoyed, not with him, but the other 'friend' of mine. I wouldn't call her as a friend actually, since she never thinks me as hers. I used to care so much of her, I forgo...

I have this particular desire. I really want it to be a reality no matter how stupid or silly it sounded. It's not living in a mansion, or being a princess or even be married to Patrick Dempsey. This is a common dream. But hell, God knows I'll never have it. I do know that even the dream is not coming true, I will never stop wanting it too.

I'm not looking for someone to talk to I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K. I've got more than a girl could wish for I live my dreams but it's not all they say Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real I need someone who really sees me... (Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore Still believing you'll walk through my door All I need is to know it's for sure Then I'll give... all the love in the world I've often wondered if love's an illusion Just to get you through the loneliest days I can't criticize it I have no hestitaion My imagination just stole me away (Still...) Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real I need someone who really sees me... (Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore Still believing you'll walk through my door All I need is to know it's for sure Then I'll give... all the love in the world Love...

Hey you, the breeze came and told me about you, the sun then showed up and said that too. They whispered in my ear, saying you are the one. But then the black clouds came. Rushing towards me, screaming at my face.. that you would not be mine... Hey you, You're so far away, I don't know what to do. You're so ahead away while I'm still counting steps behind you. We're so different. Why do I still desire you? Hey you, I'm sorry that I stole off the pictures of you. I'm sorry that I stare them all night long. I'm sorry that I dreamt of you for so long. I'm sorry that I crave so much, for you. I mesmerize your name, though you did not know mine I remember your birthday, though you did not care for mine I'll be here, looking at you from afar, Cause there's no guts in me to talk to you and cross the bar.. I'll just be your hidden lover, cause you worth a thousand better

I'm phenomenally thrilled, excited and in love! Seriously, the feeling is indescribable. I am so in love, I'm drooling all over him. I can't even move my eyes for a nano second from the beautifully drawn face. All the good things he brings in my life, I couldn't say enough thanks. For years that I waited for his existence in my life, after very long searches, countless locations, but then I came home full of frustrations. I was about to give up, and just no longer craving for his love in my lonely life. I never felt so gloomy in my 17 years of breathing. Then, in this bookstore, I saw them. Yes, so many of them. My eyes were very sore to look for the one that I have been desiring. I look through the eyes but it was an unfortunate that they were not any of them that I would call "the one". I looked down and walked away, Who knew, the days passed so slowly, and I walked to the same bookstore. I wasn't looking, not even seeking, for the one anymore. Ca...

This is when I knew, Aku telah menyerah kalah

Today is my birthday, the 31st of Jan, and today I'm 17 I'm still in pyjamas, the clock ticking at 11.15 My mother is snoring at the other side of the room Did not hear a word from her to make my heart bloom But I'll just stay put in front of my computer, entertaining myself from misery and hunger to make the clock even faster I sing myself a song that made me become a survivor. Under the shower my heart sank Knowing I had nothing to appreciate on this evening At 3.00 p.m I must say, I almost gave up and don't bother about a birth day The phone started yelling and I was happy as hell I can be But I walked in the corner with tears falling out, non-stop Thank you, my friends There they were, they lighted up my day with their presences on that day Thank you, my friends. That was a memorable day of my 17th moments Thank you, my friends For letting me smudge my love onto your faces with lots of creams Thank you, my friends Thank you for everything. ...

I don't write beautiful stories, neither imaginations nor meaningful quotes that happens to motivate 1 in every 10 person in the world. Out of nowhere, I suddenly realise why I appreciate candid pictures more than a real portrait. Here's FOR ME , why they show that you're so happy without to get ready for the moment to be captured and pretend it's such a lovely time you're having. Insanity approached ayesya

its actually a year and 10 months ++ (serious macam nak promote buffet) oh yeah, sakit hati. sebab just had an argument and i don't give a damn who's fault is it. One simple thing I know, he hurt me pretty bad. SABRINA!! Kotak Merah = Red Box = Karaoke = Melalak sampai naik gile :) love the equation? I did it myself. Pretty smart huh? *sorry, pukul 3 pagi nih jadi retarted sikit

no more hopes.. no more imagination.. and obviously no more everything.. i'll stop myself from looking throughout the window and admiring the looks and the way of walking. i'll stop smiling and thinking when he walk past through me and keep saying his name. i'll stop telling my friends how he looks on that particular day or what he eats and how he walks. i MUST NOT look at him where ever he goes. i MUST NOT adore him when he does something nice. and i MUST REALLY NOT get jealous when he talks to that girl. i have to stop telling myself that i should go and say hi to him. i should definitely stop smiling at him. i obviously need to stop looking for him around the school. SHIT..why now!!!! After 2 days that i feel so completely thrilled and excited. Now..it is all have been taken away. MAYBE i should delete his number. MAYBE i should start to hate him. MAYBE i should pay attention to somewhat/someone/something else. and i really have to let his name ou...