Idiosyncrasy

Alhamdulillah, bulan Syawal bakal tiba dalam beberapa hari lagi. Kemeriahan disana-sini mula dirasakan dgn kehadiran dendangan lagu raya, yg sedih mahupun melonjak gembira.. malahkan, kami di kelas turut sama mengeluarkan anak tekak utk turut menjiwai keriangan Aidilfitri..haha! tak sangka ramai yang tampil melalak bersama! Kesibukan lebih pada tahun ini, dgn keseronokan menekap kueh tart! "pinetarT" tak disangka sambutan yg agak memuaskan drpd teman2 terutamanya Azzahra yg menunjukkan keobsesan terhadap "pinetart" ku.. (cube sebut laju2, msti terkejut!) Alhamdulillah setakat nih tiade sape yg complaint dgn rase atau tekstur pine tart nih.. :) nihlarh rupenye..mula2 nk main2 sahaja. seronok pulak rasanya. arinih mahu cube kuih laen. xtau larh name die ape. kami just maen bantai jerk recipe. and it turn out to be so good looking and bootiful! tapi kan, this one is very sweet, sesuai tuk kids and childrens especially azzahra! hahaha my kitchen plak looks like this..so...

kenapa in this world ader perkataan "sacrifice"? why tdo they think dat love is all about sacrifices? yes i do agree with the statement; 'when we love someone, we would sacrifice anything for them' it shows that we really do love that someone. such as; A mother sacrifices their money and time to be spent on their kids. Because she LOVES them but why do we intent to say. " oh no, this is something we call responsibilities. they HAVE to spend their time for us because they are SUPPOSED to." well. have you think it through? i was there ONCE. saying that my mother don't love me. she's just buying me stuff cause she's supposed to.. well here's another example; why do teachers sacrifice their time resting at home and stay late at school just to make the pupils better at learning? do you seriously think its paid? well NO! they dont get paid by staying late to teach us that's what we call sacrifices. but how do it works in a relationship?

i'm so annoyed with the july test. Results were like.. OMG.. atleast improving in add maths without having to copy anyone. that's the thing. Some people they get great marks and get compliments from the teachers but they didn't have to work hard for that certain paper. then why they get GOOD MARKS? easy; bcause they copy other peoples' papers.. yes.. very annoying right? yeah i did that before and trying myself to stop doing that coz it would not be fair for other people and you are lying to yourself.. yang paling menyedihkan that i failed EST..it's like EST???~~!!! how can i failed it? someone thats even worst in english than me pon dpt pass.. nak tahu how? coz she brought in the infos of genetic engineering on that exam day.. how dat i know? coz i saw her..copying and writing down words from an article.. im so pissed off..didnt want to tell any teachers..well u know i did dat once..so..let them be..coz at the end..diorg yg akan rugi. Alhamdulillah. physics lulus. ...

no more hopes.. no more imagination.. and obviously no more everything.. i'll stop myself from looking throughout the window and admiring the looks and the way of walking. i'll stop smiling and thinking when he walk past through me and keep saying his name. i'll stop telling my friends how he looks on that particular day or what he eats and how he walks. i MUST NOT look at him where ever he goes. i MUST NOT adore him when he does something nice. and i MUST REALLY NOT get jealous when he talks to that girl. i have to stop telling myself that i should go and say hi to him. i should definitely stop smiling at him. i obviously need to stop looking for him around the school. SHIT..why now!!!! After 2 days that i feel so completely thrilled and excited. Now..it is all have been taken away. MAYBE i should delete his number. MAYBE i should start to hate him. MAYBE i should pay attention to somewhat/someone/something else. and i really have to let his name ou...

arinih gaduh lagik.. smlm da gaaduh.. wat the fish btollarh.. ntah apehal ngn kiteorg aku pon xtau..n 1 time tuh aku rse nk campak jauh2 jerk.. masyaALLAH tahap tension yg maksima skg nih..da larh mmg da tension than other probs added to it. OMFG. aku rse nk makan org skg..yg psl perarakan tuk merdeka nih xtaularh nk buat cane.. mama's going to pahang. so there will be no one here..and i chose to stay wit abg coz abg asked 4 my help to loof after aqilah.. at d same time..SIJIL KEBANGSAAN BABE!!!! canne aku nk lepaskan..takat nk masuk tv tuh bukn heran ape.. ahiihh.. si tinggi berkaca mata nih agik sorg..kredit da bes..tahap kebosanan yg mmg xleyh nk describe cane.. n i think he changed number to avoid me..well if thats d thing.. its GOOD at one side..but SADLY at d other..dalarh smlm mimpi..ASTARGHFIRULLAH..

waaaaa!!!!!!!! chemistry tadi..cam nk koyak jerk paper tuhh!! sengal tul.. agam not bad arh..englishh..byk giler nk kene tulis..esok bio, est ngn FUCKIN addmathss.. tahap mennntooolll! 2 days ago ader bnde best jadik..manusia itu..wat request kat fly fm flirty at 10.30.. then masuk radio..hahahah klaka giler..xnk cite lbeyh2..bahaye.. :D arinih tade pape pon..xpoase coz nk bawak pasta yg aku masak malam tadik tuk they all tuh.. abbes! mereka kenyang perut suka hati larhh..haha..

today woke up at 5.30..MasyaALLAH ngantuk tahap gaban. dnt know why tp memang xleyh lelapkan mate balik.. so baring2 atas katil..was scared dat i cud shiver myself till my teeth drop if i get into d bathroom dat early. pukul 6 mandi..solat subuh..dengar fly fm morning session..its interesting. not dat i juz knew bout it though.. sampai sekolah trus letak kepale atas meja. seronok. dpt lelap mate kejap.pstuh mr ganesh masuk..he told us dat he's leaving and miss mona lee will take over. damn..most people said shes kinda bitchy and stuff. i have no idea whether dats true. i hope not coz it wud be tough for all of us and her too..when she finds out dat we have a big number of "good students"! Biology arinih buat experiment..bakar kacang..nggee~! we got it at first but we had so much fun wit it. we burn another one..i still got 10 minutes of nap on dat high table, which pretty much tempted me even more to juz close my eyes though i can still hear Pn Zainab talking about fats i...