Idiosyncrasy

Aku dalam dilema yang menyesakkan nafas, membengkakkan otak dan menyakitkan hati. Kenapa setiap kali dalam sesebuah pemilihan tuh menjadikan hidup kau miserable? Maybe bukan kau, tapi aku yakin dan arif bahawa 98.9% orang dalam dunia nih akan mendapat tekanan perasaan dalam bab-bab memilih. Secara general, benda-benda harian yang kau lalui, choice kau utk menu lunch harini, atau apa yang patut kau masak utk suami kau yang bakal pulang dari kerja dengan muka tension dan keletihan menyelubungi diri lepas stuck dalam jam for hours. Yang berbeza hanya level tekanan perasaan kau dan the way you tackle the problem. Kau orang semua tahu, pilihan yang kau dah highlight tuh, akan determine the way your life goes until the next choices comes to you. Dan sehingga itu, apa saja kesan, buruk baik, tahi atau bunga, you made your own choice kan? So kau nak blame siapa kalau kau salah pilih? Apa-apa je keadaan, lelaki nak pilih isteri, perempuan nak pilih laki, mak nak pilih menantu, bos nak pilih e...

Oh God. It's not that I disagree of whatever she claims she wants. Just, the way she put the words and say it out loud makes me shiver for a second or 5 seconds at least. "I don't want to see you here next year, you may go wherever you want, just not here." That's what she said. No, I didn't do anything wrong, or yet. She wants me to study abroad next year. Putting that much hope in me did make me proud, but again, am I able to achieve the goals? I have nothing wrong with the idea, me myself would really want to go somewhere snowy and chilly for the studies in the future. I'm thinking of Ireland, the accent just let me fall in love deep into the idea of going there for dentistry. Or even United Kingdom. I love English and British! Kingston University might be best for Marine Biology courses. Praying to God of course or the best results and all the help that could get me with my dreams and goals. This is only the basic phase of my life, where all the pla...

Sebab title post kali nih mengenai anak Melayu, jadi aku akan menaip dalam bahasa Melayu. Kira-kira pada pukul 1630, Sabtu, 12 September 2009 dimana aku dalam perjalanan nak pulang ke rumah. Sebagai anak watan yang masih belum berkemampuan nak membeli sebuah kereta untuk mengulang alik kemana sahaja, jadi pilihan terbaik adalah LRT. Dari Masjid Jamek ke Wangsa Maju, dengan tiket plastik yang dah usang kerana di guna mungkin berpuluh-puluh kali oleh berbagai jenis manusia yang berharga RM2.10, aku yang ibarat sudah tercabut urat betis akibat perjalanan yang amat jauh untuk menemani kakak tiri aku untuk mencari sehelai tudung yang berharga RM10, mengucap kata syukur sebab masih terdapat tempat duduk utk aku melabuhkan punggung. Akibat penat yang teramat, aku tak mengeluarkan sepatah kata dengan kakak tiri ku itu, walaupun untuk menegur bagaimana dia tersengguk-sengguk dalam tren sebab mengantuk. Namun aku tetap memasang telinga dan mata ku tetap melilau sekitar tren tersebut. Berada 2 ...

I am in a situation where I feel so annoyed with what happened around me. Though I admit, this is not the best move I've taken to show off my maturity. Knowing I've been lied right in front of my face for the whole 2 months was overwhelming, yet as I said before, being an ass for 3 days in a row by not calling, or even bother to hi wasn't the best thing to do. The news did hit me pretty bad, since I'm so closed to him as I thought we were best friends. He gave an excuse but it wasn't enough. I have my own reasons to feel hurt deeply, but sooner or later I will come to my senses and give him a call to say sorry for being too emotional about the whole thing. Soon, hopefully. I don't wanna think back that a highly foolish and immature action that call our friendship to an end. I am annoyed, not with him, but the other 'friend' of mine. I wouldn't call her as a friend actually, since she never thinks me as hers. I used to care so much of her, I forgo...

You heard about Japanese eating Whales, and u suddenly become angry and think that's disgusting. While, Malaysians, guess what? They have turtles eggs in their plates. Yes, Malaysians, well maybe some of you don't but there are many people out there who does. Now turtles in Rantau Abang is leading towards extinction. And I'm pretty sure, not many of you know that they are few turtles in Malacca. Out of so many food out there, please, I beg you. STOP HAVING TURTLES EGGS IN YOUR PLATES! Those RM10 for 4 eggs are eggs for the turtles to keep their species running in the Earth ecosystem. How do you feel, if one of your cat's kitten being eaten? Think smart and have some respect towards the nature. Just sign a pledge, it's definitely free and it won't take more than 5 minutes of your precious time on Facebook or Myspace. Save our turtles

All right, this is a list where things that we can easily do in our daily days that we don't realised could help in saving our Earth. Just don't take this for granted, cause I'm pretty sure, most of us have realised the importance of taking care of the mother nature, that we should have done since ages ago. Instead of swearing to the government because of their unorganised development or all the peoples that still buy things and use plastics excessively or even the people who just simply could not be bothered looking for a trash can, I'll just try to help you people to know the easiest things to do and save our environment :) 1. If you're buying a loaf of bread, or even just a bottle of water, do you really need the plastic to hold it? I really don't think so. Do this, if you still able to hold the things you bought, then hold them without a plastic. So, before the cashier pull out the plastic, just simply say, "No, I don't need that plastic, thank...

Aku dah lama tunggu saat nih, actually, malam tadi. Yes, thanks to Barca akhirnya the United's fans will keep it low for at least 5 months. Aku bukan peminat Barcelona, tapi aku memang nak Barcelona menang, just to keep the United's people shut up for a while. Why? I didn't know MU because of Ronaldo but I know them because of their cockiness. Yeah, maybe depa bagus or whatsoever, but hey, nothing gives anyone the right to brag. They just make people hate them :) Plus, looking at Cristiano Ronaldo, especially his hair, I'll have to puke. Sorry girls, but I don't like him. Zidane is definitely hotter, especially when watching him head butted Materazzi live on tv in FIFA WORLD CUP 2006. For 2-0, is definitely VIVA BARCA. To all United's fans, hope this will help you guys to be a little humble when it comes to any match. For Chelsea Fans, hope you will enjoy this, Chelsea VS United (Love Story)

Itu aku, tapi dulu. Dulu, ketika umur baru mencecah 12 tahun. Aku ingat, emak suruh kemas beg pagi Jumaat, aku kemas beg sekolah. Emak cakap, kemas beg besar, nak balik kampung. Aku menangis, sebab tak nak ponteng sekolah. Sumpah. Ini kisah benar. Memang agak pelik sikit bila menangis sebab nak pergi sekolah. Tapi itulah aku, being the only one left in the family, aku bosan di rumah. Aku suka pergi sekolah. But time goes by, zaman tu dah berubah. Sekarang bukanlah suka ponteng sekolah, tapi tak pernah jadi a big deal lagi kalau sehari tak pergi sekolah. Itu kisah aku, ini kisah budak ini. Stefaner Zaner, yang digelar Iron Kid , because of her 13 years of full attendance. 13 years. Waa, itu maybe aku kalau aku masih bersekolah di Logan Park High School. But hey, 13 years she never missed school, not even a day off because of sickness, or any trip with a family. She is one of the reason that proves, by going to school, you'll get straight A's or even 4.00 in CGPA. She's norma...

Aku bukanlah seorang anak Malaysia yang boleh dikatakan seorang yang mempunyai semangat patriotik. Tapi, berada di Dataran Merdeka sehingga 3-4 pagi bukanlah juga tanda kau menyintai Malaysia sepenuh jiwa. Tolong jangan silap tafsir ya? Aku pernah mencaci, pernah juga membenci, benci dengan sikap kerajaan kita yang lemah, menyampah dengan sampah-sampah yang bersepah. Aku meluat dengan sikap manusia Malaysia yang membuatkan negara kita tersenarai sebagai negara ke-empat yang kurang prihatin dgn kepentingan orang lain. Betul, aku belum penat menyatakan kebodohan Malaysia yang masih dipengaruhi anasir-anasir luar. Mungkin tidak cukup dua muka surat kalau aku nyatakan semua. Tapi, bila aku dengar lagu ini terngiang-ngiang di pendengaran, entah mengapa sayu hati. Mula terbit rasa cintakan Malaysia. Pernah dengar lagu ini?

I'm phenomenally thrilled, excited and in love! Seriously, the feeling is indescribable. I am so in love, I'm drooling all over him. I can't even move my eyes for a nano second from the beautifully drawn face. All the good things he brings in my life, I couldn't say enough thanks. For years that I waited for his existence in my life, after very long searches, countless locations, but then I came home full of frustrations. I was about to give up, and just no longer craving for his love in my lonely life. I never felt so gloomy in my 17 years of breathing. Then, in this bookstore, I saw them. Yes, so many of them. My eyes were very sore to look for the one that I have been desiring. I look through the eyes but it was an unfortunate that they were not any of them that I would call "the one". I looked down and walked away, Who knew, the days passed so slowly, and I walked to the same bookstore. I wasn't looking, not even seeking, for the one anymore. Ca...

Baru aku tahu, seksanya tuisyen. Apa kaitan dengan tajuk post? Sabar dulu. Baru aku tahu seksanya bila ibu tiada. Mama cepatlah pulang, tiada sape nak anta pegi tuition. :( Hari Khamis, Seperti biasa, sibuknya di sekolah mengalahkan secretary menjawab telefon. Sibuknya sebagai pelajar bagai Menteri mencari undi. Kimia di Rumah Encik J malam nih bagaimana? Siapa nak hantar? Benak bengkak. Kembang kuncup memikirkan wajar atau tak untuk aku ponteng dan berdengkur di rumah instead. I knew it was not a good idea after all because of all maggots and ants in my stomach knows it better. Kenapa ulat & semut? Sebab semua org ada butterflies, aku nak unik sedikit. 6.30 p.m. Pergi atau tak? Aku dengan malas sambil tolak rambut ke belakang..capai tuala, hempas pintu terus menyerahkan diri aku kepada pancuran air. Mandi, benak kembang kuncup lagi, menanya soalan yang sama berulang kali "PERGI KE TAK?!" Jikalau soalan ini yg ditanya dlm Paper Bahasa Melayu 2 SPM 09 nanti memang a...

EDITED* utk sesiapa yg tidak faham :) Haha, ini semua angkara kau ridzwan! Aku mula memikirkan perkara2 yg harus aku taburkan melalui keyboard hitam putih ku ini. Pernah dengar gay? Lesbians atau lesbo? Lebih tepat Musahaqah. Bagaimana pula dengan Homosexual or Bisexual? Pelik bukan? Yeah, masyarakat kita sendiri mula terjelepuk jatuh di hadapan nama-nama "indah" ini. Aku tau, korang baca ini mungkin sudah mula terbayang di depan mata apa sahaja visual yg ada. Tidak2. Jangan kau benderakan pula blog aku ini, this is definitely NOT PORNO. Aku saja suka2 menimbulkan isu yg sensitive ini. Tidak. I have nothing against gays or lesbians malah aku mempunyai 2 teman rapat yg mengaku diri mereka lebih gemarkan 6 packs dari 36D. Cuma tidaklah drastik bagi aku, kerana mereka bukan Islam. Dan mereka juga bukan rakyat Malaysia. Aku sangat pelik, dan aku sangat mengharapkan sesiapa sahaja yg boleh memberi pandangan mereka ttg perkara ini dpt kurangkan berat benak aku ini. Why do guys get ...

Pernah dengar tak lagu "Ada Apa dengan cinta?". Oh Jangan ingat aku sedang membicarakan cinta sebab hari Valentine's Day, no offence but aku tak celebrate Valentine's. Memanglah melompat, dengan hati berbunga riang, senyuman hingga ke gigi lepas dapat bunga ros, chocolates or anything red tapi kenapa on the exact date? Ok, aku bukan nak cerita kenapa aku rasa Valentine's Day itu bodoh tapi aku nak bakar keyboard ini dengan kelajuan menaip pada tahap maksima utk aku cakap pasal satu fasa hidup yg aku sendiri sdg lalui sekarang. Ada yg pasti boleh agak kan? Jgn risau, ini bukan post yg emotional atau jiwang karat. Sekali lagi, aku ego. Aku boleh lepaskan, bukanlah senang tapi tidaklah mustahil. Tapi aku sengal, kononnya aku pencinta yg agung, tak pernah lupa kekasihnya. Kononnya aku ini yang terbaik, setia pada yg sama bertahun2. Kononnya aku ini kuat, menunggu hingga ke akhir masa utk dia kembali ke sisi. Sebab tuh aku lebih rela seksa diri aku. Biar aku tau yang a...

Aku mengucapkan rasa tahniah setinggi langit kepada dunia penyiaran Malaysia, spesifikasi kepada iklan-iklan mengenai keselamatan jalan raya ( INGAT ) yang aku pasti menarik perhatian semua bangsa, barisan umur dan juga perbezaan jantina. Senyuman bangga ketika menonton setiap iklan INGAT yang dipertontonkan di RTM pasti bertambah selepas beberapa siri Iklan mengenai keselamatan jalan raya itu ditambah. Idea yang sangat kreatif pastinya dihargai semua dan tutur kata setiap watak di dalam iklan itu tentunya sudah lekat di minda. Aku juga seronok meniru aksi Atuk yang kononnya berpengalaman itu dan kemudian aku tergelak sendirian. Aku juga tahu aku tidak keseorangan, kan? :D Jadi aku harap, taraf kartun-kartun yang sedang diusahakan oleh kartunis-kartunis Malaysia akan dinaik taraf (tidak gunakan suara orang dewasa, dan penulisan skrip yang lebih menarik) untuk menarik minat lebih ramai warganegara untuk menyokong hasil kerja orang Malaysia Mungkin selama ini kita sering memperkotak-kat...

Sudah lama menyimpan data di minda sambil benak menyusun kata untuk dipersembahkan pada alam siber ini. Terima kasih pada research Michael Moore yang ditayangkan di Star Movies tentang kadar bayaran kesihatan, tuntutan pembayaran kesihatan dan insurans nyawa, inspirasi menerjah secara terus menerus. Tapi kesal sedikit tidak tahu mengenai tajuk filem dokumentari itu kerana terlepas tayangan nya selama 17 minit tapi aku cukup faham apa lelaki American ini cuba sampaikan. Tentang satu pasangan yang menghidapi barah. Bertahun hidup di bawah kekayaan dan memiliki 2 rumah agam, mereka hampir muflis gara-gara kos perubatan yang melampaui batas di Manhattan. Namun penyakit mereka tidak menyerah kalah malah hidup selama 3 tahun bersama 12 jenis ubat-ubatan membuatkan mereka kelihatan 10 tahun lebih tua dan kini menetap di bilik bawah tanah di kediaman anak mereka. Seorang ibu tunggal mempunyai cahaya mata seramai 5 orang kini mengganggur di rumah selepas menjadi wirawati tragedi 11 September a...

Rifhan is suddenly moving to Qatar in 2 days away. We didn't actually think it was true probably because of previous experience that made us know her so well but we decided that we should probably give her some warm goodbye's so by giving her a little present. We went to d new JJ in Keramat that has been told such a great place by Aishah. We didn't think so though. Or atleast I don't actually think so. All I can say that it was okay. Grabbed some lunch at Wendy's (Please, I really regret it). There where extremely lots of balloons in CLOWN SHAPES! Gosh thank God it was just balloons. While we're searching for the present and out of nowhere there was this tall, hairy, coulourful faces with small balloons walking around and approaching kids. I was really relieved that he didn't approached us (or probably because Sabrina keep avoiding :D ) or I'll kick him in the nuts. SERIOUSLY. It took us lots of walking up and down, finding the shops and pen. I thought I...

The recent popular "celebrity" nowadays is Barack Obama right? Suddenly everyone starting singing and making videos about him. Have you heard the song called "We love Barack Obama" by The Hush Sound? Its damn funny...although some people (like EMMA) don't really get it. Hahaha then you should watch the video in Youtube where Hilary Clinton is wearing old woman's lingerie and having those high briefs. They do all this dodgy sex positions and automatically made Rihanna's Umbrella song "more popular". Oh yeah, I was being sarcastic. Hahaha. love, Ayesya Johan :D

Aku sangat marah sekarang ni. I just saw the news (honestly, I hardly listen to news) about this Jane Doe mendakwa this certain pihak about calling her stupid for buying the house in that area. Logically lah kan, siapa yang bodoh? Penduduk yang beli rumah tuh, Pihak contructor yang membotakkan hutan? Atau pihak atasan yang develop the lands? You can think for yourself. Dulu, masa semua penduduk Melawati sibuk buat petition ada pihak atasan bother about it? I remembered that I signed those petitions almost at 4 different places. Dulu ada sesiapa kisah pasal landslides? Or global warming? Sekarang bila dah jadi baru sibuk nak fikir solutions. All of them are stupid. They're so many spaces in Malaysia kenapa they aim for the hills and build those huge houses? Bukan semua orang mampu beli pon. If they were kenapa ada abandoned buildings??! Stupid. Memang bodoh. They blame the rain. Hujan lebat. MALAYSIA memang lah hujan lebat kan?! tak belajar geografi ke? They should realise that befo...

Aidiladha tahun ni rasa macam cepat sangat. The more the merrier kan? It is indeed. Raya seronok dekat rumah Omi, eventhough tak tolong untuk food preparation (relax lah, I do it every year. Miss a year takpe kan) tapi seronok dengan gelagat budak-budak. Aku kena belajar our family signature dish ASAP lah. Sekarang nih baru tau nak buat sotong, kuah still belum belajar. KETUPAT SOTONG . This is the food that makes everyone hurries to Keramat so they won't run out. Teruk sangat sampaikan each person only gets 4 pieces of sotong supaya adil and semua orang dapat makan! IMAGINE!! For those yang tak tahu, Version Kelantan nih is the sweet one. Kuah dia manis and some people (like my sis-in-law) langsung tak biasa makan sebab version orang Pahang bukan yang manis punya. Things are becoming clearer nowadays since Abg J tak lagi avoide us and join the family gathering. Just sadly abah still merajuk. Mama ngan papa tak pakai baju raya (serious geram) aku pulak beria pakai baju...

memang dah lama sgt, sampaikan time bukak blogspot tadi berlambak blog updates especially from our 'wannabe drama queen' (she's not exactly tapi tak tahu nak nicknamed ape :P) okay, dengan lafaz Bismillah (this will be the longest blog post that you will be ever reading in this public diary! I kinda start realising how gay this blog title is.) From the beginning of the week, I started packing, with lots of clothes (expecting my bro will bring me to somewhere I call fun) and 2 new Playstation Games for my niece (obviously me too). Guitar Hero 3 and some Shrek 3rd Carnival new game. I know! I know its lame that I just started playing Guitar Hero when the world has already named it as the best game ever! ( please do watch Heidi Klum's ad about Guitar Hero on youtube. Damn amusing! ) Get so addicted to it seriously. Although my time on ps is only at 1 o'clock in the morning cause I really don't want my niece coming to me and beg "Achu, boleh tak nak main 2 o...